Along with everyone else, Google tells me I have no more space to upload pictures. Bummer. Until then, I shall tell you all about what an awesome mother I am.
Last week I forgot Tuesday was Friday's schedule at BYU. That probably means nothing to you, but to me that meant I needed to pick Savannah up an entire hour earlier than usual.
So when it was 2:27 the school secretary called me, and said it was early out day, normally that would be fine.
Except that I was checking out at Target with a cart full of stuff, rather than at home, ready to hop in the car and be there in 7.2 minutes.
So, I got there SUPER late.
Did you know they charge a dollar per minute you are late?
Yeah, I could have bought a new pair of shoes with that.
Or fed a child in Africa for 2 months.
Needless to say I felt pretty sheepish, ridiculous, and like one of "those moms."
You know the type-- frazzled, forgetful, unreliable?
Yep, that was me.
But I've tried to move past all that.
Then Savannah said the most interesting/hilarious/thought provoking/stinging thing. She's still being super awesome about keeping her room tidy (minus the stack of folded, clean clothes I discovered in her hamper 2 days ago-- but I digress. The girl is very proud of her room. She hollered to me downstairs and coyly asked, "Moooom! Do you think I listened to you and put my jammies on?"
I replied, in the way she was hoping I would of course, because any good mother would do that. "No, I bet you didn't get your jammies on. I bet you've just been playing around up there."
"Nope!" (jumps into full view so I can see her in her PJs)
"Wow, great listening, Sis! You are doing so well at being obedient!."
"Yeah, I think it's one of my talents. But do you want to know what I am almost PERFECT at? Cleaning my room. I'm getting so close to being perfect at that. Kind of how you and dad are almost perfect at your phone and computer."
OUCH.
The thing is, my daughter was doing anything but looking to insult me. She was genuinely coming up with a compliment. And in her truest most honest form, she gave the very best example she could think of.
What it was was a wake up call. I like to THINK I'm good at being in the moment, being present and NOT being on the computer or my phone. I'm fully aware and make it an effort to not be stuck to my phone or computer. But then the more I thought about it, the more I realized I was. And not in the ways I initially thought she was perceiving. When I think computer-- I immediately think, "Facebook." When I think phone, I immediately think texting. That's what people do and I almost wanted to say, "No! I am really good at not getting sucked into social media and texting. I communicate in real life!" But I, I had spent the last few mornings on the phone with my sisters, chatting. I had also looked up a Visiting Teaching message online. I've been doing Christmas shopping online. I've been reading the news on line...
Regardless of how many "good" things I could be doing, to my children it is no different. To my children I am not being completely present. I am being distracted.
So I have a goal for December to really make it a good month where my children can FEEL my presence. They won't see me as the mom always on her phone and computer.
Here's to being imperfect!
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Monday, November 26, 2012
Thankful
This year we went up to Boise to spend the Thanksgiving Holiday.
Kyle and Cade drove separate because they had a date with destiny (hunting) and were going to be staying longer than myself and the girls.
I had the wonderful pleasure of picking up sweet little Aubrey Kropf, a darling BYU freshman who I babysat back when I was 12 when her parents lived in Virginia for medical school. Her family now resides in Meridian and she was up for riding in the car with my two crazies. (Ruby and Sav)
She was a gem! She read stories to them, helped them pick up dropped blankies and toys. She was a great little assistant. And soo patient. This girl is amazing. She is the most positive, upbeat, shining star ever. I have to admit I was a little sad once we got to her house because I so enjoyed spending time with her in the car, catching up on the last 16 years of her life.
It was so great to see Brenda and Mark, her parents. They have always been the ultimate example of kindness and love. Truly. Babysitting in their home was an unreal experience. Walking into their home you could not help but be smacked in the forehead by the Spirit.
It was such a place of peace and love.
And now they have a house full of children in every possible stage of life and they continue to amaze me. And that home is still a place of peace and love.
I'm kicking myself for not taking pictures. They are such a darling family. Just as I was getting ready to go I felt Ruby's head and notice she was pretty warm. Dr. Kropf confirmed my thoughts and was so sweet to ask what her other symptoms were. Spoken like a true family doctor. And he said it so sincere! Just seconds later his wife produced a bottle of pain reliever for us to take. The little Kropf girls gifted DumDum suckers for Savvy and Ruby, which made the final 20 minute drive of our journey better than just bearable.
As I drove to Kuna I couldn't stop thinking about what an amazing family that was, and counted myself so lucky to know them.
When we arrived in Kuna Don fed us some heavenly scrambled eggs (I'm still thinking about them) and the kids were tickled pink about getting to sleep in a bunk bed. Ruby was scared of Sandy, which really bothered Savannah. Sandy is Savvy's other cousin (not really. She's a Golden retriever, but Sav loves her like no other) and she wanted Ruby to love her just as much.
I was shocked when I had all the kids in bed without complaints by 8:30. As soon as I uttered the thought out loud, I decied to check on them. They were quiet, but still wide, wide awake. So I gave Cade permission to climb on the top bunk and chat with Sav once Ruby fell asleep.
They had to ask twice what I said because they couldn't believe Mom was telling them to talk to each other.
I guess I'm getting soft in my old age.
Kyle's siblings were running around getting everything ready for the 5K they put on every year. I think it's so great they have something to channel their energy into.
The next morning was the big race and boy did those kids put on a great run. Each year it gets better and better. They hold the run at a great little park in Kuna. A cousin was the DJ for the event which made the entire thing way more official. The course is a great one, too. Trains came by a few times, making it super exciting for the kids.
When I think back to the time when Mary was in her last days and she had this hair-brained idea to put on a 5K run Thanksgiving Morning, I just thought it was an idea and it would pass. But the woman, despite all her pain and discomfort, forged through and made it happen. That is the epitome of my Mother-in-law. She made things happen. Great things. She didn't let minor details like she's never put on a 5k run before get in the way. And never mind it was going to be less than 10 degrees outside.
Oh I have much to learn from that woman.
She was so good at being in the moment. She didn't fuss over petty or unnecessary details. Either she relied on other people to worry about them, or they simply weren't worth fussing over.
She touched a lot of people. We are so grateful for all the friends and family who came to support and remember her by. Thanksgiving morning isn't the most convenient of times to come out and run a race in the cold, but fortunately people can look past the thermometer and get a cup of cocoa to get them warm.
After we cleaned up the race and cleaned up ourselves we started preparing Thanksgiving Dinner while munching on inhaling Sarah's delicious hors d'oeuvres. The cousins played together and ran amuck outside. The adults started putting things together in the kitchen (or outside at the smoker) and I couldn't help but be proud of everyone for coming as far as we have since her death. We were a mess when she died. And we were oh so grateful to the kind family who brought Christmas Dinner to us just days after her passing. We were lost and didn't know what to do. Ever so slowly each sibling is finding their footing and making the family meal happen in Mary's absence.
Heather even made her dad the special pistachio pie Mary use to always make. It was delicious.
The following day we visited with some wonderful friends the Smiths. I met Matt Smith the first summer Kyle and I were married. He was home fresh off his mission. He was a big, burly but soft-spoken kid. Fast forward nearly 10 years and he is married with 3 kids on a beautiful lot in the country. He married an amazing woman. This was my first chance meeting his wife and boy was I floored. She landscapes her yard. She works full-time (while her husband is gone for the summer! wowzers). She makes picnic tables in an afternoon. Because she can.
Cade was really jealous when he heard that Matt's wife likes to go hunting.
Poor, deprived child. Sorry, kid. Your daddy married a city girl. :) But I don't mind a spell in the country.
It was lovely.
Later that afternoon I took a nap. A reaalllllly long nap. It was the kind of nap that when you wake up it's dark and you wonder if you'll ever fall asleep that night. So it was decided that would be a good time to head home. The girls will sleep, Mom will be wide awake. So I loaded up the car, put the girls in their jammies and we were off at 7:30.
Savvy was so sad Sandy wasn't around for her to say goodbye.
Like, almost tearful sad.
Oh, that girl wants a dog something fierce!
It was a nice thought anyway, thinking the girls would sleep. Savvy fell asleep around 10. Ruby woke her up with her whining. Both girls finally bit the dust at 11. I drove in the peaceful night listening to a book on CD, meanwhile contemplating all that I was so very blessed to have in my life. From petty to profound, I have much to be thankful for....
A home.
Three healthy children.
Tankless water heater.
A van to travel comfortably in.
The Gospel of Jesus Christ.
A calling with the worlds greatest young women.
Incredible neighbors.
Loving parents.
Hysterical siblings.
Dear friends.
The Atonement.
The Scriptures.
The Internet.
Good books.
Chocolate.
Boots.
Old letters from great friends.
Being a stay-at-home mother.
Cell phones.
Lap top.
Lip gloss.
Dove Soap.
Nail polish.
Hot Baths.
Roller coasters.
Beaches.
Sunsets.
S'mores.
Funny texts from my family.
Sisters who come to my rescue.
Modern Medicine.
Legs that can run.
Art-- my children's and the museums. It's all beautiful.
Music.
Butter.
Wax. My eyebrows keep them in business!
Tweezers (to get what the wax didn't)
Massages.
Laughter.
Jimmer.
BYU.
Waterskiing.
Snowskiing.
Mountains.
Snow.
Hot Chocolate.
Thank you notes.
My husband:
The only one in this world who can handle my spectrum of emotions and love me anyway.
This man has mastered forgiveness and unconditional love beyond my greatest comprehensions.
He makes me laugh.
Lets me cry (and doesn't get all weirded out by it)
Tries to solve my problems and then stops and just listens when I tell him to.
Hangs a huge elk head in his office to make me mad.
And then loves me for getting mad.
He puts away the milk when I leave it out.
He reloads the dishwasher when I do it wrong.
Vacuums up my little piles I sweep and leave on the kitchen floor.
I love this guy!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Winter Wonderland
We had a lovely dumping of snow in October. Everyone always freaks out and says, "Seriously--it's OCTOBER! Winter isn't supposed to be here yet!!!"
We get an October snowfall every year without fail though.
And you know what?
It always makes me happy.
I love snow.
In relief society this past Tuesday evening we were asked to write on these darling paper leaves something we are grateful for then many were read aloud.
I lost count how many people said they were grateful for their warm homes.
I wrote, "The beautiful white snow...."
Fortunately mine didn't get read aloud.
After all those snuggly gratitude leaves, mine would have messed up the coziness.
But I really am grateful for snow.
The kids love it, too, and it makes winter SO much more fun.
Well, not quite for Ruby. This was her expression nearly the entire time. All she kept saying was, "I cold, I cold."
Savvy had a blast though.
Never too early to try a snow angel I guess!
Aaand we had to snap a photo of our beloved snowman who melted just moments after this picture. Obviously Savannah is still very attached to her pumpkin and requested to have it in the picture.
As Utah weather would deliver, by Halloween there wasn't a flurry of snow in sight. In fact, we enjoyed a lovely 70* weather day.....
Go figure!
It snowed again the day after election day (which was a tender mercy in and of itself for me!)
with all the snow-angel making outside and the like, Savvy needed two coats so when she went to school, she could have a dry coat to wear.
Thank you, Costco!
Early bird son and our OCD daughter
There's so much to write about...and so little time! Summer, Bookend #2, Kyle's big jerky-making event, Halloween, the election (sniff, sniff), last year's Christmas....
One day it will happen. Never say never. :)
As for now, we are great.
:: I am loving my calling with the Young Women. Below was our fundraiser to "raise the bubble" -- that was quite an accomplishment.
:: Kyle is loving his calling with the Cub Scouts.
{insert picture of Kyle throwing candy to scouts and doing a uniform inspection. Oh wait....no picture available. Yet...}
:: Cade is an awesome kid, responsible as ever. One morning he woke up quite early, got his chores done, ate breakfast, got ready for school, then headed to the bus stop...an hour early. He turned around when he saw Junior High students and ran home. And silly me I just thought he left the house to take out the garbage. We had a pretty good laugh about it once we decided Cade really left early on accident rather than on purpose. Outdoor soccer has come to an end, but fear not, indoor soccer is well underway. Cade actually really enjoys it (hooray!) and has some pretty impressive footwork and quick feet.
:: Savannah is tickled as ever now that she and Ruby have traded bedrooms. She begs at 6pm every night if she can go to bed yet. She LOVES cleaning and straightening her room. She's kind of OCD about it. Considering she was on the other end of the spectrum just months ago, I'll gladly take OCD. We'll see how long it lasts. For now, it's pretty adorable how much pride she takes in her new little dwelling. Today she said, "Mom, I just love to just spend time in my room quietly."
Ruby is hysterical. She loves her friends and cousins her age. They just giggle and giggle when they are with each other. It's as if they have some on-going inside joke. Here is Ruby with her good buddy Jane. We are so sad Jane's family moved from our neighborhood, but that won't stop us from seeing them!
One day it will happen. Never say never. :)
As for now, we are great.
:: I am loving my calling with the Young Women. Below was our fundraiser to "raise the bubble" -- that was quite an accomplishment.
:: Kyle is loving his calling with the Cub Scouts.
{insert picture of Kyle throwing candy to scouts and doing a uniform inspection. Oh wait....no picture available. Yet...}
:: Cade is an awesome kid, responsible as ever. One morning he woke up quite early, got his chores done, ate breakfast, got ready for school, then headed to the bus stop...an hour early. He turned around when he saw Junior High students and ran home. And silly me I just thought he left the house to take out the garbage. We had a pretty good laugh about it once we decided Cade really left early on accident rather than on purpose. Outdoor soccer has come to an end, but fear not, indoor soccer is well underway. Cade actually really enjoys it (hooray!) and has some pretty impressive footwork and quick feet.
:: Savannah is tickled as ever now that she and Ruby have traded bedrooms. She begs at 6pm every night if she can go to bed yet. She LOVES cleaning and straightening her room. She's kind of OCD about it. Considering she was on the other end of the spectrum just months ago, I'll gladly take OCD. We'll see how long it lasts. For now, it's pretty adorable how much pride she takes in her new little dwelling. Today she said, "Mom, I just love to just spend time in my room quietly."
Ruby is hysterical. She loves her friends and cousins her age. They just giggle and giggle when they are with each other. It's as if they have some on-going inside joke. Here is Ruby with her good buddy Jane. We are so sad Jane's family moved from our neighborhood, but that won't stop us from seeing them!
We are grateful for so many things--- family, friends, our home and health, our freedom, and Oreos.
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