Early yesterday I was in a bit of a funk. Nothing particularly awful. I wasn't feeling surly, depressed or grumpy. Just in a funk. I suppose the funky feeling seeped in after making some calls to find a babysitter. Babysitters are in abundance here, yet for some reason, I was unable to nab one for my two particular time slots. (When that happens I can't help but wonder-- are my kids monsters? Do I not pay enough? Is the babysitters union striking against me because I don't have a good enough junk food stash for the sitters?) I promised myself last week that I was going to get out-- without the kids. I've been in a horrible habit lately of dragging my kids absolutely everywhere with me and it's not too fun. For them I mean. I don't mind it so much (or as much as I thought I would in my brief stint as a single mother). As mothers we all have to do it, it's part of life and having children. You have errands and the children join you on errands. But you see, I've been nesting lately, and with nesting comes
a lot of errand running. Just about every day last week Cade would come home from school and 20 seconds later I'd say "okay! Time to go!" and it would break his heart. The poor kid just wanted to PLAY. So anyway, I still had quite a list of things to accomplish and some meetings to attend, and my intention was to do them, this time, without my children. They would get to stay home and play to their hearts content with a choice sitter, and I'd cross some things off my list. Win-win, and we are all happy. But to no avail, a sitter was not to be had.
And I was out of Oreos.
And the kids were almost out of sidewalk chalk.
The chalk pieces were down to stubs after Cade's grand Yoshi World rendention on Sunday afternoon and when they are down to stubs it's akin to being down to your last inch of milk in the carton on Saturday night.
Wo is me, right?
Not really. Which is why I am choosing the word funk rather than some pitiful phrase to overdramatize the feeling I was feeling. (then again, isn't writing about it kind of being dramatic?)
I was NOT about to go to the grocery store. I had plenty of actual milk in my fridge and I was determined to use up the rest of my perishables before heading to Chicago WITHOUT a trip to the grocery store.
But still, Oreos are very important. And sidewalk chalk is like oxygen here.
And I wanted sitter!
I was about to go back to the drawing board and make some more phone calls when I noticed I had a message from Bethany. Sweet, sweet Bethany. She's one of those people who just radiates love and kindness. She was wondering if she could drop by. (Of course!)
Bethany comes over and what does she have in arms?
Sidewalk chalk for the kids. Oreos for me.
I wanted to cry.
It gets better. She told me she was available to babysit the kids.
Both days I needed one.
When that happens you cannot wonder God's love for you. I'm not being fecetious. I mean it. How on earth could someone know exactly what I needed when I needed it without my saying so if God was not involved? Bethany is one of those great souls who is just always in tune. Perhaps to her it was just a random thought because, hello, Michelle can't go two blog posts without mentioning Oreos. And sidewalk chalk is universal fun for kids. But because she is so
good, so thoughtful, so aware and sensitive the timing was just
perfect and in that moment I knew God loves me and knows even the most trivial desires of my heart.
Needless to say, the funk dissipated and all was right with the world again. :)
When I grow up I want to be like Bethany.